A friend of mine often asks me, "who are you to question God?"
To which I reply "If I want to be right, shouldn't I?"
Most of us were encouraged to refrain from questioning God (our beliefs), I can recall many times being warned against it in fact. I did as I was taught, and over time I became quite good at it, but then sometimes life happens to you in such a way that you just can’t ignore the bullshit. You just have to ask, where the hell is this God?? I deal with that in the first two chapters of “It’s Okay To Let Go”, sharing my journey out of religion and the mental barriers that keep so many locked in.
Here is an excerpt from “It’s Okay To Let Go” in which I talk about one of the hard moments of my life that served as a battering ram to my belief system. Even the mention of losing faith beings about worry and criticism, but if something isn’t working losing faith in it is probably a good thing.
“You see at that time I was what we call down south “on fire for the Lord”.
Somewhere in the desert sands of Iraq a soldier for the U.S. Army had become a servant of the Lord. I was intense in my pursuit for the heart of God. I read from dawn till dusk, I attended church services in bombed out buildings and sang praises to the top of my lungs, I prayed fervently into the midnight hours, and shed tears when others refused to listen to the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Yes, I was definitely on fire and in love with the relationship I felt I had with the one true loving and eternal God. But all of that changed when I needed him the most, and he was nowhere to be found.”